FUCK@!!!

fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck im freaking out about my exams. i have no clue how this is going to go for me honestly...

and, i have nothing to do for new years, to top it off

hail santa

so it is christmas, its gay. mass was crap. no fun parties :(
hung out with some friends (thank god). expecting guests..

cya

zzz

so, i got a new date for my 'postponed' test, now its at the end of feb! fuckers....

christmas is around the corner *snore*...less than 2 weeks for my exams to begin *faint*
on an unrelated note, my plan of 'epic' proportion is working to an extent ^^

got invited to a party day after

die!die!die!

so i got out of having to attend a wedding reception, by telling my folks that i had a 'christmas party' to go to...hehehehehe....but the party was canceled :( so i just hung out wit a friend.

played Halo 3 co-op (awesome!) but this kid watching us was annoying as fuck, telling me what to do and where to go...fuk! and then we saw this chick with the most perfect behind OMG! ^^

it ends

so today was technically the last day of this crappy sem, and now we head out for the exams in jan...bleh! didnt get our hall tickets yet(the main reason i bothered going to college today)...

was hoping for more of a so long than i got :( anyhoo, 8 days for christmas..i think. could care less, i dont have anything good to do for christmas or new years, being practically friendless ^^

so i guess i'll hit my books

cya

R.I.P Chuck Schuldiner

Today is the 6th anniversary of Chuck's passing. he was an amazing musician, really talented. died due to a rare form of brain cancer. Rest in peace brother, you live on in your music.

Shamal is postponed to March, there went the only thing going for me this month :( two more days of college left before this shitty semester ends. and OMG we dont have any breaks in between our fucking exams....FUCK!

this coming week beings my battle with the RTA...grr

gtg
Chuck in our hearts, evil in our minds.

Fuck you RTA!

so i reach the driving center for my scheduled road test only to find out that its not confirmed and that they will let me know when...wtf?! i wasted a day of class for this shit. i had a nice pleasant ride to the place, got their fairly on time and im greeted with this crap!

im having an acne attack again. my forehead resembles war-torn land. speaking of war, going to watch Black Hawk Down soon (i know its late but stfu!) ^^

two tests coming up this week, bleh.

omgomgomgomgomgomg

so i just got done with one round of finance extra classes, round 2 on sunday *faint*

have my second driving test tomorrow, hope that doesnt crap like the last time (though im pretty sure it will) :)

soo tired...

eep

so yesterday was a tad...embarrassing ^^...anyways, i got a milky bar! yay!

driving classes have started, so far it seems ok. one presentation up this week, my last for this sem. yay again! im having a 4 day weekend, not as pleasant as id like it to be though.

oh boy, cant wait for the 14th! \m/

another one bites the dust

so im done with yet ANOTHER presentation and test. honestly, i have no idea how many more i can take without murdering someone.

christmas is on its way, another lame one where everyone else is having fun with their friends, and i sit at home like a retard cause i dont happen to have any. driving classes restart tomorrow, test on 6th, hope that goes well.

the only things im looking forward to in december are Shamal and a M-Audio Jamlab ^^

cya (boy is it nippy outside!)

blip

so another week is done, another test and presentation the coming week. hope the ones i finished this week were decent enough.

have no clue what im going to do this weekend, probably study a bit for the test...gawd, im pathetic! ^^

finally picked up the electric after so long, have lost all downpicking speed, but hopefully will get back in form soon.

a friend's birthday coming up.

cya

one down

so one finance test down, one to go and one assignment due on tuesday. and just when i thought i had one free weekend coming, i hear of another test on sunday...sigh...

ive finally got the taper to gauge my ear, but im kinda hesitant after reading about the consequences of not doing it properly, and the lack of an o-ring to secure it. well, lets see how that goes.

i r going back to my books.
cya

fucking crowd

so the first video of our set at the Ampulance show II is up



why cant crowds shut the fuck up, especially when its ACOUSTIC guitars! oh wells...

have a test tomorrow, hope that goes well. really losing my mind here on how im going to pull off next week's work. god help me.

cya

this is just stupid

so today felt like one of those days when it appears you've expected too much from people, and then your let down. yes, it does feel really shite, and i have no idea why my mind works this way, but it does.

one day people actually take the time to talk to me, and then all of a sudden, they just stop like they hardly know me, for a certain length of time, and then it repeats like a cycle. weird... maybe im just messed up that way. i have no clue.

anyways, back to my books....gah!

my first ever gig

yes, yesterday i did my first ever gig, at the Ampulance show. me and a friend did covers of a variety of genres. the crowd was VERY gracious, congratulating us and stuff, inspite of our fuckups..dunno why though.

missed The Sparkplugs, but Indiephone was awesome, so was the pasta. suprisingly, i didnt fuck up my parts as i did during practice. Mike Priest was fucking awesome!

as soon as i woke up today, reality hit me like a brick. tests, assignments and crappy people at college :(. anyways, im off to my books.

gig pics

cya

sweet mother of god

so im going through the most grueling week ive ever come across. first pissing off a friend, then assignments, and trying to brush up on my playing for the gig on Friday (god i hope that goes well).

i cant wait to get done with my tests n assignments and catch my breath. anyways, i has to go for dinner..going to be a long night.........

R.I.P

Vitek, drummer of Decapitated, passed away recently, due to injuries from an accident while on tour in Russia. This is really a big loss o the metal community, he was an amazing drummer, really talented. the entire weekend was shit, and to top it off, this had to happen, one of ours is taken from us. :(

lulz

so today was a day filled with a unusual dose of sour humour, frustration, boredom and wholesome entertainment (win for DDs! XD). who knew knerts were still addictive at my age ^^

test got postponed to a day earlier (SOB!) so i have to buck up and put my sanity on a hold for another week :(

i has a nap now.
cya

roses

rose day: a day to kill boredom; a pathetic excuse to boast your popularity by walking around with a bunch of roses to show off how much people 'love' you, and how many friends you have.

fuck that shit, anyways, why would anyone want to give their friend a flower with thorns on it? meh

Rose Day=FAIL ^^
cya

*breathes out*

so finally both my finance tests are done...no more tests on the horizon so i guess i can finally take it easy for a while.

started watching Special Unit 2 today...soo awesome ^^ gotta love gnomes and their sense of humor! have an assload of assignments left to work on, HOPEFULLY will get to that soon enough.

kinda tired, off to bed.
cya

gay

so dandhiya was gay, the crowd was gay, the weekend was gay, finance test tomorrow...

cya

fail

so i failed my first driving test, fucking RTA. the examiner was a cunt, my instructor is another cunt. long story.

only one day of college this week...awesome! have to stay back 2morrow though :( plus i has to go for dandhiya on top of that to babysit my sister..fek! another evening of sitting and watching people socialize and play with sticks to gay music. hmm...

time to lay some shizzle on ma dizzle.
cya

gawddamn

just managed to remove a damn worm that my sister brought home in her USB drive from school. if i ever meet its creator, i will kill him.

last driving class today, wish me luck for me roadtest tomorrow. hopefully i will be able to stay calm and hold everything in till im done with it.

finally got a lil studying done today for my Finance test. it just hit me recently, that i'm going to be forced into going for dandhiya on thursday, and i have tests coming up the following week...fuck! this is going to suck. plus, if i dont go for it, i risk losing a chance to meet a friend who i dont get to see often.

just my luck

w00t

Both seasons of Special Unit 2 on its way over the internets to my harddisk *blush* good ol days........cant wait ^^
















working on an assignment...bleh

sigh

so last night's birthday 'party' blew. i dont know why i let myself get dragged to a 2 yr old's birthday, no offense to him off course. all i did was sit, have dinner and then left.

havnt touched my books the past two days. who'd blame me, i needed the break. i just hope i can get my assignment work done in time and pass that driving test.

did a little recording yesterday, didnt turn out too well.

fuck this

so im getting alot of heat at home AGAIN about my hair, even though its short and oiled as they want it, but WTF?! fucking asshole..grr

the test today was meh. gassed out the answers like a uncontrollable fart :( I've just put in an eye-brow spike into my ear piercing to stretch it out, hopefully this will follow wit a flesh tunnel soon enough.

people have been acting more weird than usual today, wonder whats up with that. anyhoo, got 6 days of eid holidays, so yay!

last test for the week tomorrow, lets hope this one doesn't crap out too into an epic fail

2 more to go

so my test yesterday was pure raep. got my paper back today, thank god i passed. got another test 2morrow, and one day after...sigh. rejoined driving classes yesterday, new instructor, think he's nepali, not sure. he's kinda of a no nonsense person, as he says and does appear to be, which is a good thing, with my roadtest coming up soon.

so im growing a stache in addition to my usual goatee ^^ always wanted to try that out, lets see how it goes. who knows what next from here, maybe even a handlebar! \m/ *crosses fingers*

handlebar staches are soo metal. you tell em Joel

Prey

Review


a picture says a thousand words, right?

gotta have that funk :)

spartan calves?!...eww

joy

yes, another test added to the list for next week. at this rate, we might as well be running a marathon too. havnt got the time nor the energy to sit and record any tracks yet, hopefully in the coming week.

already having panic attacks about all this work :( If there truly is a god in the worldwide of internets, hear my cry

*cough*

so im under the weather, and so are my folks, all thanks to my sister...grr. a ton of assignments and tests, and soo little time :(

watching the first season of Dethklok, and i must say, its br00tal!!! and on a completely unrelated note, who knew finding the right tone on Guitar Rig was going to be such a bitch, that coupled with audio mastering/mixing.

back to my books im afraid.

j00

cut my hair a few days ago, feel like a little school boy, all clean cut and stuff...bleh. ive been geting all sorts of commendations from people at college, yet again, they dont understand that i dont care about what they have to say, nor will they ever get the point.

just got done with a tee, anyways, off to bed

mhmh

its been a week since college has reopened after summer, and its as expected....LAME :(
the juniors look retarded, but some of them are wearing slayer tees...i can vouch they like slipknot too..pooosers(they have lip piercings)

oh wells, the subjects this sem are really boring, not to mention the teachers. bleh!

the first few days of college, everyone had commented on my hair (everyone!). maybe i look like i care what they think, or that im waiting for someone to give me advice on how i should groom my hair....fuck that

laters

crocodile

well, i turned 20 yesterday.......yet I dont feel any different. a friend said that my luck would change on my birthday, and well, it remains to be seen, or has it? hmm....

hung out wit a friend and ate out too, MIGHTY ZINGER! couldnt think of food after that, soo stuffed.

well, tonight no Warhammer, as has become my nightly ritual :( no one is responding to my messages

3 weeks

dad left for india earlier, and so begins 3 weeks alone at home. i have to admit as much as i am happy im alone, there isnt anyone to fill those silences during the day or night, and it gets lonely.

i missed my scholarship by .02 GPA this time...still kinda shaken by the fact. I think im going to go listen to some Isis now.

a day has passed

mom and sis left for holiday last night, and now one entire day has passed without them, god i actually miss them...no ready breakfast in the mornings, no automatic house cleaning..i guess this is what a bachelor's life is

my first class of driving wasnt really 'smooth'. i was sweating even though the damn air conditioning was on! i really need to work on my coordination and pressure release lol

oh wells, thats life for the next month for me

and yet again

and so it happens again, a close friend is leaving, that makes one less friend of the handful i have. oh wells, i guess its for the best perhaps, even though i hate it. im not sad, way past that, im just really pissed off. and wat are the odds, it had to happen during 'summer', another shitty summer ftw!

everything's just going slow and shitty at the moment. i just hope at the end of all this, that its for something better.

and the battle was won

weird evening, my slippers were extra squeaky and i nearly lost my fingers tryin to open a bottle of dew, damn cover didnt budge for 10 mins and it was cold, to top it off...grr

well, i had to collect my passport back from the driving school office and when i called to check on it, that dumb bitch couldnt get the pronunciation of my name right, 3 times. pfft!

alright im off to bed

SD

so i got myself registered for driving classes, which hopefully should be done within a month's time.kinda nervous about it, but hopefully this is only a temporary thing.

i didnt know microSD cards were soo much in demand, i went to 2 stores n they were out of them O_O had to settle for a 512MB one, eh i dont need 1GB anyways. *pets ego*

now hopefully things should settle down soon and i can enjoy some quiet time at home...

*yawn*

its almost 12.30 a.m. im staring at the computer screen with a feeling of bloatedness. i cant believe im soo fucking bored. heck, at this point, I'd even make out with a random chick to pass some time XD

i had cookies after AGES today, and good are they as good as i remember them. *yawn* ok sleep is getting the better of me.

cya

darkest hour

its the second week into the summer holidays and its already begun to get shittier than it is. more shit from my dad, mom and others. the middle-class mentality has to make everything and anything related to money.

i wish i had college, at least it would be sort of a lesser evil compared to this. speaking of which, i saw my IBM professor at the mall yesterday...weird...he sucked. havnt been in the mood to whole heartedly learn a song on the guitar either. this is hell.

love the heat, hate the summer.

*pant*

today was real fucking sweet apart from the usual dribble. the exam went ok, managed to finish the paper JUST in time. phew

today, we jammed with an actual drummer...joy ^^ trying to nail Crystal Mountain by Death, after our drummer heard the song an hour back

played football with the d00ds after AGES...fuck, my legs hurt like a bitch

why?!

why does everything i do have to come back and bite me in the ass...
for instance, i stop talking to a particular person, who happens to be working as a temp at a bank, because she is annoying....

now, summer is here and im want to get a summer job, and my sister suggests asking her, to try my luck and tells my mom about it, and then my mom starts on my case about how i didnt think about it and how im not concerned and shit....

oh wells....thats life for me i guess

lolfag

exam paranoia paranoia paraNOIA PARANOIA! ahhh! *faint*

blar!

well, a week's left for the exams, and the feeling hasn't even begun to set in properly. think i'll start with a lil studying to ease the feeling in XD and then progress to larger volumes.

well, im giving up the electric until the exams get over, as usual, and will just live with unwinding with the acoustic till then...sigh..

went grocery shopping in the morning...a whole lotta strawberry milk, Hershies, garlic bread and new trousers!....mmm mm ^^

*cough*

so ive been under the weather for the past 2 days, and it hurts like a bitch. ^^ with the exams coming up, getting well doesnt seem like a nice idea anymore

i havnt had any cookies in ages and it sucks. socially also, things have started to crap. however, playing in D standard tuning is fun XD (noodle strings ftw!)

kiss the pig

now that all the tests and stuff are over, my mood's been a little better than usual. however, everyone else is bogged with work and it sucks. i guess me trying to make them feel better has just worked against me in a way.

anyhoo, yesterday's jam was a godsend. jammed to Death and Slayer and recorded some random stuff...with clickity drums! ^^

exams next month, bleh! guess im going to sit at home and work on my presentation today.

why is today so dull and shite...

the slaughter

the last round of assignments for this semester just ended, i hope...got one more test to go and a presentation.

today was meh. my HR test was pretty good, though something during the day did fuck with my mood. anyways, this is the second day without strawberry milk :( had to settle for banana milk yesterday (which tastes like bubblegum after a pack of oreos ^^)

hit the burnout phase with my guitar recently...sigh

ah well, tomorrow's a new day, and with it will undoubtedly bring new shit

fuk!

SWEET MOTHER OF GOD! IM FAILING TODAY'S ECOMMERCE TEST AND ITS ALL THAT BITCHE'S FAULT! AHHHHHH!

she's got the whole world...

life has a funny way of handing your ass to you. sunday i get assraped br00tally, by two tests. the drummer thing is back to a halt again...sigh

today was shite. just everything about today, although i did meet my highschool pal, whose down on holidays. havn't touched my guitar today, kinda miss it already.

oh wells, a long shit-filled day ahead of me tomorrow X-(

cya

the road ahead

the next round of tests and assignments is at hand. i have been making some headway as far as finding a drummer is concerned, but lets see how things pan out.

summer is bearing down, but ive got sunblock now ^^ *smells skin* mmm plastic
people are noticeably more retarded...hmm. a friend has come down for the holidays, my only fellow metalhead classmate during highschool, the one who hooked me onto it in the first place

can't wait for the Transformers movie (explosions, giant robots) *reminisce* :)

bad things happen to good people

well, ive finally managed to get my amp up and running again, but the entire process is just weird. today was ethnic day, a day i loathe, yet because now i actually have friends, i decided to dress up a lil better and i wore slippers to coll too...soo awesome! ^^

well, the coming weeks are gonna be pure rape and torture again, damn tests and assignments...god help us all

what i've become

and this strange sickness has set on me, i have no solid clues as to why. i feel this restlessness inside, depression seems to stick to me and i want to die. even though friends inquire, i dont want anyone's help, yet i cant even help myself. sometimes, they are do or say something that triggers off issues from the past, and that remind me of how stupid and immature of a person i am...maybe thats the cause, maybe it isnt.

im a wreck right now and this day has just been miserable from the start. oh wells...

i <3 Red Sparowes

that jam session didnt go as planned, my amp is busted...sigh..so i cant even practice at home :(

as the assload of assignments keeps on coming, wave after wave, college just gets lamer. I've been listening to alot of post-metal off late...drifting off to that happy place whenever i get the time.

oh wells, hopefully things will look up soon

pfft

well, after the shit chain of events last week, a host of tests and crap marks, oh not to mention, a severe depression bout, im on my feet again. got done with the last test today, now for an assload of assignments...sigh...

this week is gonna be fun, provided we do an electric jam ^^, with a friend from another college...I soo wanna cover Slayer and Death! ^^

Thank god for friends, in every aspect (you people know who you are). :)

300

yes, i just watched the movie, and i must say...semi-naked men in a blood-orgy...very amusing. after the movie, me n the d00ds were sitting on the curb n pretty much laughing our asses off and me. i now have the title of king Leodweebis and am armed with a cookie shield, boxers and a eclair spear (which i personally find cool) ^^

this coming week is gonna be pure rape with the amount of portion to study for the tests :(

i think im gonna go force myself to open me books...(i HAVE to say this)...FOR TONIGHT WE DINE IN HELL! HU! HU! HU!

all filler

i wonder why people always use me as filler material. they only bother to say hi and talk to me when they are bored and cant find their 'friends'. when they do, its byes. hmm....

it does piss me off but i cant help it, its my only source of social activity. well fuck them. :)

i got a test next week in HR...bleh

rubbing fuglies with ed

i type this entry out in utter pain and partial loss of hearing...Desert rock fuking kicked ass yesterday! Mastodon, In Flames, The Prodigy and Iron maiden were intense! i got some nice pics of Mastodon and In flames, but The Prodigy were moving too much, and Iron maiden is hard to get pics of too..sigh..i recorded a few videos of them but apparently, the cam i was using needed the mic to be turned on separately?! wtf!! >.<

oh wells, i didnt get to meet any band either, but i ended up with a Stone Sour guitar pick i found on the ground...a good quality pick, screw the band. ^^ so i got something out of yesterday

omg omg omg!

alright, this week was real shitty. its weird, i do nothing, yet im dead tired when i get home in the afternoon. now that my piercing is back to its bleeding..grr..i have to be real careful again.

so its finally here again, Desert Rock! w00t! i can hardly believe it, the bands i used to just listen to online i now get to see in person! IRON FUCKING MAIDEN! IN FLAMES! MASTODON!

anyhoo i needs to cleanse my meatshell

cya

7 days!

ok, this week pretty much sucked. i got kicked out of HR class yesterday for being 5 mins, which was not my fault...entirely. I finally convinced a classmate to jam with me on sunday..so yay!

well i dont know about you, but people still suck and my weekend is made...Frosties and instant pasta, here i come!

btw, happy birfday sis! :)

grey skies

and a week has passed since college has started, and yet again, the subjects suck! the teachers are ok, but kinda boring after a while. and people have this annoying problem with my hair, my piercing, my clothing sense and anytime a girl hugs me...weird.

oh wells, screw them. im soo bored again. :( just waiting for Desert Rock ^^

3 weeks

yesterday was Valentine's day, a pretty normal day like any other to me. I still dont understand why people glorify it, its just a commercial gimmick to benefit novelty-card makers, florists and confectioneries. to walk around looking at all these couples, which you only ever see on this one day, when 'love' should rather be expressed everyday, is really stupid. meh

atleast some good came out of the day, a gift from me to me, my desert rock ticket ^^ (eat your heart out chocolates and roses!)

gutted

well, the good news is im still bored, with one week left for college to re-open. the last week went like shit :)

my piercing hasnt healed yet, i suck at gunbound, and i think im getting a cold. the thoughts of growing my hair (second shot) seem all too unrealistic at the moment...sigh

dmanit! why are black plugs so hard to find. anyhoo, the chimichangas, i finally managed to try, are actually pretty fooking sweet i have to say.

bed time. cya.

see you on the flip side

after a really swell weekend (NOT!) and shitty last night, the only i get out of it is an ear piercing. everything else just really sucks. though a while back, i did watch a movie that i saw once before, a LONG time back, and wanted to see again because it was cool....strangely it wasnt as funny as it seemed the first time...wierd

so now that my holidays suck and will continue to do so for the next 2 weeks, i think im gonna go play some Gunbound :)

cya

shit!

went to volunteer for the Guinness book events at Safa park yesterday. so lame, but the 100 bucks made it worth it i guess (desert rock, here i come! ^^)

had to go for a wedding reception...lame. the only reason i went, was the for the food (dont we all love free food) and that fact that i didnt show up for an earlier wedding involving the same family. eeh

off the church

kiss the cook

well, my exams just got over yesterday. which is a good thing. so its 18 days of laze and lethargy, or is it?...now my dad wants me to learn to cook *gah!* in preparation for the 25 days im goin to be home alone during summer *yay!*.

i jus watched the Killadelphia DVD (left, as you migh t've guessed) a while back, nothing like that daily dose of metal to kick start the day. i recommend this dvd to any metal fan, 2 hrs of pure metol!

k-a-h-l-e-r!

omfg! ESP have started selling the JH-600 and JH-200 models with Kahler Hybrid bridges...so who's buying me one for my birthday? *looks around in anticipation*

have a business law exam tomorrow, who knew that the phrase 'long arm of the law' applied to law notes being really lenghty too. grr

lunch time.

fark me

Watch this

enjoy...

im off quail-hunting
cya

ginger

..............................you dont have to read this.............................soo bored...

ginger ale and random faces, ready or not, here i come!

urban camolicious

The ESP Jeff Hannemanwwweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee..... *fapfapfapfapfap*

a ray of hope?

have you ever noticed, when the sun shines through the clouds, it instills a feeling that life may just be good after all, that there perhaps are good people and that everything in life will turn out fine.

well, my half-tanned arms (damn you black tees!) speak for themselves...

mmm tea
cya

round and round

its amazing when i just stir a cup of tea and realise i forgot to add any sugar, yet fully aware of the fact, i still continue to stir...like a trance...

darkness at the bottom of the funnel...round and round it swirls...joy...*faint*

Cadbury world!

omg! i can't believe they have a theme park like that!

i wonder if it is made entirely of chocolate...mmm...then i could eat chocolate and enjoy the rollercoaster at the same time *gasp*...i think i just creamed my pants..eep

gotta run
cya